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No because I just think it’s interesting that everyone and their mother is obsessed with the Irish now but when I was trying that on a couple years ago I was mocked and ridiculed. Whatever! Hi sorry I’ve been gone so long as I’ve been busy having the worst time of my human life. And now? I can’t really speak to if it’s better or not but here we are. One insane byproduct of “coping” is that I’ve almost finished all of Downton Abbey, a show that I famously watched 50% on an international flight with a layover in Dubai where I learned that I got a C on my AP US History final (this was 12 years ago). Also randomly it was Christmas. A little lore for you guys as a treat. I’m on the last season I think and it’s starting to get kind of boring so I think I’m not as emotionally maimed as I was for all of February.
Lately I’ve been thinking if I’ve made the right choices for myself and if I’m going to spend the rest of my life wondering that. Sometimes one cannot help but feel that one is being punished most cruelly by one’s circumstances. I’m talking about me btw if you got confused as I was being all coy-like. Should I have been smarter about my choice of career, approach to relationships, general demeanor, etc etc etc, (all of it)? I hate being wrong, so much so in fact that I make sure never to be! Makes you think though, the Girl Who’s Always Right (trademark pending)… could she have never been right at all? I know it’s very 2008 for me to be sort of vaguely self-referring in this way but trust me: context will not make either of us feel better about this! Obviously my new era is just feeling really disappointed with where I’m supposed to be at in life suddenly even though I felt fine about it like 3 months ago. It’s fine! Maybe the solution to this is finally start watching True Blood. Imagine!